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2015 DBlog Week: I CAN

Ten years ago, I knew.

Deep inside this (candy) heart of mine…I knew.

I knew something was wrong. I knew it was more than an occasional saturated diaper. I knew it was more than a simple childhood virus, but I was too afraid to push harder for an answer. I wasn’t ready.

I couldn’t.

I was right. Something was wrong. Very, very wrong. On July 25, 2005, she was diagnosed with Type 1 Diabetes. The room stared at me – the nurse – expecting that I would step up to teach my husband how to give our daughter a shot. Instead, I sat in a rocking chair, holding our sleeping baby, suddenly afraid of every needle on the planet. I was horrified that this is how she would live…how we would live…

I couldn’t.

At home a few weeks later, settled in for the night…I still replayed the doctor’s instructions in my mind over and over again. When to eat, how many carbs to eat, what to do if she was low, when to test for ketones, when to correct, when not to correct…I drifted off to sleep, and something forcefully woke me around 2 or 3 am. It literally shook me out of a deep sleep and forced me to check her blood glucose level for no reason. I found my baby sleeping soundly with a BG of 38. She barely responded when I was trying to force her to drink juice. I was sure I’d never sleep through the night again.

I couldn’t.

Fast forward a few years, and it was time to start preschool. All the other moms smiled and waved, then went back to their cars. I smiled and waved, then went to the office with my double stroller, newborn, and toddler. We’d sit there for the next three hours so I could be readily available because the staff didn’t feel confident about having her in the program.

I couldn’t.

She was invited to birthday parties, and sleepovers, and swimming playdates. I watched as other kids showed up to navigate these events on their own, but stuck around and didn’t go home. I slept on couches, and passed out cake. I helped monitor poolside, and took care of anything I could so I didn’t get in the way. She wasn’t ready to manage diabetes on her own yet.

I couldn’t.

And then, one day, I could.

I could face the diagnosis and do the shots. I was able to learn how to balance overnight BG monitoring and sleep. I left the preschool…then kindergarten…then, in the blink of an eye, 5th Grade. We figured out birthday parties, and she learned how to handle sleepovers.

Looking ahead, there’s so much yet to come.

Adolescence has arrived. Soon to follow middle school, high school, her first date, class trips, proms…eventually, her first job, driving, and college.

History has taught me I can do this.

WE can do this.

This post is part of the 6th Annual Diabetes Blog Week. To read more I CAN stories, click HERE!

Category: DBlogWeek, diabetes, DOC, T1D
  • Karen Joseph says:

    Very inspiring to hear this snapshot of ten years with T1D. What a long way you have come with your daughter running of to sleepovers and other activities. It can be hard to envision the next step/stage! I can hardly conceive of college as my son approaches high school so we’ll continue taking one day at a time. July 1st will be nine years that we’ve been on this path. The “I can” trek can be so messy but it is a marvel to look back upon. Thanks for sharing your story!

    May 11, 2015 at 11:40 am
  • surfacefine says:

    I absolutely need to forward this to a few people. Perfect timing and thanks for posting!

    May 11, 2015 at 11:48 am
  • Barb says:

    It is so hard to find that balance between keeping them safe and letting them stumble on their own. Good luck with the challenges of the next ten years 🙂

    May 11, 2015 at 12:23 pm
  • Kelley says:

    Aww, hugs to you! thanks for sharing 🙂

    May 11, 2015 at 1:56 pm
  • Laddie says:

    It is so much easier to have T1 than be the parent of one. However, your daughter is doing fabulous and so much of that is because what you have learned and helped her learn:-)

    May 11, 2015 at 4:54 pm
  • Mike Hoskins (@MHoskins2179) says:

    The adventures never end, as life goes on — you’re doing a great job, and sounds like you’re ready for the next found of excitement to start! Thanks for sharing, Wendy!

    May 11, 2015 at 6:35 pm
  • Katy says:

    You with the baby <3

    May 11, 2015 at 6:38 pm
  • kelly2k says:

    LOVE!

    May 11, 2015 at 6:51 pm
  • Colleen says:

    You and your family are just amazing!

    May 12, 2015 at 4:05 am
  • Karen says:

    You had to go and make me cry, didn’t you? You are both so amazing!!

    May 12, 2015 at 6:37 am

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